Hate, that moment evaporated _2184

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Hate, that moment evaporated
 
 
Hate, that moment evaporated   childhood has been the envy of those who have and know the Father, and my understanding of the parent is hated by the long transition to the .   five years old I know the wish, and promised a day in life of the first students I ever desire. I hope dad can take me to Beijing. Beijing is my place of birth in addition to the DPRK and the only known outside his home city of Shenyang is the only thing I was young want to go. Perhaps coincidentally, perhaps God will achieve the aspirations of the first cause of it! In short, I really and dad that year went to Beijing, and the trip to Beijing we traveled all the monuments and tourist attractions. Looking back now are somewhat vague, but it is time to make the joy memorable, that when the hand holding one hand led the proud father. I remember the so be it! Nobody could expect such a happy family of three was actually our last family happiness, this joy actually my next 13 years, the beginning of a tragedy, actually maybe the next life will no longer have the pleasure ... ... because, in the second year, my father divorced, and I was sentenced to a pro.   I was six years old the students wish is that Dad can take me to the park together, you can let me once again realize that when my father hand holding one hand led proud to be pet ... ...   I was seven years students wish is that the father can be good, we live in a three to a room,You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login, even if they are neither do not take me to play, I will be very happy very happy ... ...   I was eight years old the students desire to just want to have my father on this day with me Students with blowing candles. Just once, just once, many years later I remember one day, you can clearly remember in my childhood had the joy of our family three times, is not ambiguous, is clearly remember ... ...   However, God seems to be deliberately punished time and time again I wish the greed, the desire three years never realized before, I am disappointed, and I really despair was nine years old. This year they have been my father's wedding, set their own new families. Since then, the end is also the father of my four years of hope and good wishes career. This is a four-year From Hope to look forward to the process of despair, disappointment and then ... ... This year I do not wish ... ...   father's marriage had also a left married women, also with a general age, size and my girl, the girl is actually clever and I are classmates. She often seems to show off in front of their classmates said, After all, she said that my father it! Everything she has is mine to! I put all my unhappiness, all the blame for all the grievances with his father, that is, in my heart the moment they were deeply planted a   Yes, I hate my father, hated his incompetence, he must hate, hate him indifferent to me, I never hated him ... ... even wish I had more than once hope he homeless. The hate is for eight years, eight years my father met with dozens of times, however,You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login, also said in the few, not because of too far away, but the heart of every horizon ... ... we have not had a heart talk never had a deep hug, and even he had not said that I would like to me. In the absence of the father of a long process, I get the items withdrawn lattice, is a coward, not even take the initiative and the students speak. I like the eyes of parents and teachers have a listen to sensible boy, but did not know I'm sinking, full of It is also within the items because of my, I can not speak, so all in all is a secret, I never gave its this   until I was 17 years old in the senior year, I did not do high school, and home to discuss the year after I decided to read technical school technical school is not a pro can not pay the 2,800 yuan a year tuition, but I think father has an obligation to share half the cost of liability, so my father and grandmother around the house, ready to begin our first long talk. When I think clearly, the father at first silent, then just say three words, out, sprout, long. The accumulation of the 8 years outside the diarrhea did not ... ... I cried, pointing the nose of his father: tears are streaming down, I said a lot of harsh words, of course, the oblique accusations that the woman until the woman broke into the house, Xiongshen strangled come to me to beat me, my gushing words be considered closed. Of course she did not hit me, because my father stopped her, but his father a thin hindquarters been pushed to her, he was abusive with her playing, and then shed a woman, . I watched it all and said nothing, but the tears kept flowing down, this moment I think I should be happy, because after all these years I have been looking forward to the results, I just did not happy, even feel distressed, feeling more and more intense pain they can not breathe, only to let the tears flow must dike ... ...   this year after I have not seen once a father,You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login, not through a return phone calls, what kind of self-esteem both father and daughter isolated us in two world, this moment I realized the meaning of the Coast to Coast. Later, I do not know where the father and the woman, and not divorced, but reconciled. When I know the news, I am not disappointed, and if the heart has finally landed a piece of stone, with a trace of feeling happy ... ...   see the father again, or the grandmother. Met but feel embarrassed, the father went to the kitchen while cooking when grandma said to me: and even beat me. But these have not occurred, the father of an unexpected hug me into his arms, that I look forward to 12 years to embrace this moment I actually damn long for this I look forward to the embrace of a foreign country. Father hold very tight, and some pain, want to break free, but ultimately did not, I let my father hold. A long time, I realized that his body trembling, his Adam's apple bobbing is also in the next,You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login, God! His father was crying, even a 45-year-old big neck to bury his daughter cry, a phenomenon that has allowed me time without fault. Is a long time my father said, choking: Dad,You are not allowed to view links. Register or Login, Dad has always been you, not true that my father holding his daughter, to father and a home, and my father can not give you all the ah ... ... do not go in, my mind kept repeating the words his father just said, If I waited too long ... ... Looking back 13 years, 13 years of hate actually hold his father, the moment I said I actually vanished, right? I hated father? The 13 students in each year, and his father are related to desire, hate a living will that day every year, and he promised the students a wish? No, this is, is all about hate, not how to hate you? But I was ignorant ridiculous Until this moment finally understand. I am a ineloquent girl, he is my father, a father of the same ineloquent it! We are all put in the hearts of it! I am speechless, it is very tight to hold back the father ... ...   I was born in September, I always think that September is all things to death season, can be finally in September 2004, I know it is a fact full of joy and the harvest season. Knot down, and we can chat father and daughter can be said, then intimate, with endless happiness. I'm also a father of 18-year-old students I had, I received gave me his first life. Not only that I also call that woman for the aunt, also had a general feeling of affinity, everything becomes harmonious, the original all can be as simple as a hug, saying > There are generally said to make a wish and the emptiness, not met; Wishing things is not a form of spiritual sustenance. Wishing there was childish behavior that is self-deception and honest approach is only unfamiliar will do. Naive I am about to say goodbye to the 18-year-old students cooked the day, I decided to let his last one back to the naive, so I have 18 candle light candles ever promised me the first 13 students wish: I wish both my father or pro-life, happiness can be! Do not know the first realization of a wish Could indicate a desire to complete it last?   (The article wants to tell those who do not know how to close, misunderstanding of their pro- , Friends of the plain, as fire, but can be lost looking for, except the concentration and the pro is that once lost can not be replaced in, please cherish it ... ...)   
This article has been edited [ spirits even now ] modified in 2007-4-22 20:42:17